Never did I imagine in my wildest dreams that I would ever have another baby after having the twins. Life, however had other plans for me. On Labor Day Weekend 2019 I found out I was about 6 weeks pregnant. I was so in shock and denial that week I took 10 at home pregnancy tests and had my doctor write me orders for 2 blood tests and a urine test to make sure I was expecting. A few weeks later I went in for my first appointment and had the doctor spend an extra 10 minutes during my ultrasound to confirm it was just one baby. I finally got over my shock and had a very busy pregnancy running after twins and moving to our new home. My second shock came a month or two before my delivery that I was going to deliver my newborn during a pandemic with no idea what is going on or how my delivery will go. On April 8th, 2020 I gave birth via a c section to Mir Ali Khawaja. He came into this world roaring. He is my miracle baby as I never thought I would ever have another baby without medical intervention. Mir has officially made me a boy mama to three kids under two.
Almost a month before I delivered Covid-19 was declared a pandemic. That is when things started to get crazy. Businesses, states started to shut down. I had no idea if my parents would make it here to help take care of the twins while I gave birth. This was the first time I was going to leave the twins alone over night and that gave me major anxiety. A lot of thoughts went through my mind how was I go to do this; will all my babies be ok and so forth. Biggest fear was will I end up going to the hospital alone with no support to deliver this baby. All my doctors kept me calm that baby is healthy and will be ok and I will be allowed to have my husband there with me. The weeks and days that led to the birth of Mir not only was I scared and worried I had major mom guilt as well. I felt like the worst mom ever leaving the twins alone and bringing a new baby into this pandemic. Silly! I know but mom guilt is serious business.
I was scheduled for 7:30 am on April 8th, 2020 for my c-section. I got to the hospital at 6 am. The hospital parking lot was empty and a bit daunting seeing everyone in facemasks who went into the hospital. Upon the entrance there was a guard who gave us our facemasks and told us which way to triage. On the way to triage we saw superman wearing a facemask. That is when all my fears went away, and a smile came on my face behind that mask. I felt it was going to be all ok! My c-section was delayed by 6 hours due to a few emergencies that came in. At one point I believed I was going to be sent home and told to come another day due to all the delays. Finally, it was my turn to give birth. At 1:06 Mir Ali Khawaja came into this work weighing 6 lbs and 14 oz. I still cannot get over how perfect he is and completed our lives.
Things some how work out. My family made it a few days before I gave birth. I got to spend the last few days of pregnancy with food cooked by my mom. Best part was Mustafa could be there the entire time and able to come and go as needed to go home and check on the twins. It was a relief to me that at least one parent the twins got to see daily even though it was not me. Another fear I had was that this baby will never get my 100% attention. Due to Covid- 19 twins were not allowed at hospital. I stayed at the hospital for 48 hours alone with Mir and Mustafa. During these 48 hours Mir had my entire focus. It felt nice to bond with a newborn one on one. Mir Ali Khawaja the world is a hot mess at the moment but you have completed our lives with your presence!